For those who’s ever wanted to make a granny-squares blanket, and for myself to retain the links:
1. An in-depth explanation of how to make granny squares
2. Sizing for blankets, and number of granny squares needed
I used to think that my happiness needs to depend on finding a guy, and that without a guy I am nothing – just an empty and useless half that will never be full. I used to be upset about not being able to find a guy who would be the reason of my existence an who would provide this reason for my happiness. Now I am just sitting and remembering this and feeling bitterly amused at the thought that my parents are the ones who are empty and useless, because no parent should ever teach their girl child this way of a miserable existence and require her to follow it. I am happy now to know that I am only as full and as happy as I decide to be – and the feelings of happiness and content have nothing to do with having or not having a guy in my life. Happiness is something that needs to be found and drawn from within while being alone – and then it can be applied to living in a peaceful and majestic solitude, or brought into a relationship with a partner, who – if he is shining from the inside as much as you are – will contribute to a happy and enjoyable travel called life.
A few days ago – after a substantial break – I picked up my guitar again. As I was trying to remember things I practiced last time I played, I found myself being able to switch between chords fairly easily – and I even managed to play a song, which surprised me. I am happy that my brain can remember things well, but I’m definitely annoyed that my fingers are hurting – so I need to practice more in order to not be bothered by them. I also found my capo and made a song notebook (stole my friend Stu’s idea), which will hopefully make my practice more fun.
As I am living my life and getting further away from my unfortunate past, I am realizing how many great people are surrounding me. Yesterday I got to be around and talk to a number of different people, and I gotta say, I am incredibly happy for knowing each and every one of them. Today my day started like complete crap, but again, all day I was surrounded by some amazing people that all made me smile – and reminded me that however crappy life gets, it is nevertheless amazing.
I hate waking up and realizing that I have too much homework that is past due or due really soon. It makes me angry and unhappy – as well as creates ugly mornings when I don’t wanna do anything and feel hopeless about my life.
I like writing in my blog, though I forget to post there as often as I should.
I’ve been noticing that because of facebook I have issues expressing my thoughts in more than 2-3 sentences. So I decided to do a sentence challenge – post every day with an increasing count of sentences until…. until I decide my blog posts are long enough.