What to do when you have nothing to do

Well it's four o'clock in the morning, and I am hungry and tired and fully awake all at the same time. All because my schedule is so screwed up and it is going to be, even more than that. Well, there's nothing I can do about it, so I should just have fun with it. And of course, one of the things I can do is write in my blog. So that's what I am doing. And this looks like a very boring and pointless entry in my blog.
To add to the pointlessness of this entry – today I almost fell into a tote.

Well hi there, hope your evening is not pathetic

I haven't written here for a long time. And I have no idea why. I have loads of time, and yet I just don't write – sorta feel scared would be the best description. That happens sometimes and I don't know the reason. Or maybe I do. Well, the one good thing – today I was sleeping for the most of the day. I slept last night, took a nap in the early afternoon, and slept most of the later afternoon and the early evening. I am still sleepy, but I feel like I can finally function. This is good. But it does not take away the subtle weird realization that I gave up on life. It's all the same – wake up, go to class, do homework or random stuff that distracts me from it, go to bed/work, start all over again. It's all really boring. And then I will graduate at some point. And all I am gonna do is wake up, go to work, come back, make food, go to sleep. It's miserable. Both of those patterns. And yet I am completely reluctant to doing anything that will break those patterns, anything that will make my day more fun. On this pathetic note, have a good evening, people. Hope your evening is more lively than mine. I'll try to write more often – it's not a promise, but I'll make an attempt at keeping it.